This year has been very difficult. It has been a very expensive year, both financially and personally. My father, grandfather, and grandmother all died earlier this year. I had to replace our furnace (only 6 years old). My dog, Hope, developed seizures, hypothyroidism, and pancreatitis (all this year). She spent 3 days in the ICU ($2000). On December 1st I totaled my car. With all this happening in one year I could wonder why I’m getting beat up. What have I done wrong? Well, because of my Christian belief, I look at this differently. I’m wondering what I’m doing right. I belief that the Evil One is the one who brings nastiness into this world and that God can make good out of it all. I don’t know what I or my family have done to deserve this attention, but I’m honored. I have learned much. Many of these things I’ve learned before, but I don’t think I understood them until now. I now have been praying for the the wisdom to apply this understanding.
I have learned to be less angry and more patient. Don’t get me wrong here, I’m no saint. I still get angry and at stupid little things.
I better understand my role as a steward of some of God’s resources. Dad and my grandparents took nothing with them, but left behind a legacy and dizzying number of friendships. Those friendships are invaluable to us now without him, but even more important I believe that Dad had stored up treasures in heaven through these relationships. Again, don’t get me wrong here either, I still like stuff and God knows I have plenty. However I don’t value it the same as I used to. I hope to value my friends and others more.
I am more thankful for the things and relationships I have. I can remember a time when I didn’t need anyone, certainly not a God I couldn’t touch, hear, or see. Now I can’t imagine life without seeing his influence on a daily basis. He has allowed me to be a part of some cool things. I can’t thank Him enough.